Yesterday my fiancé and I went to my future brother-in-law's graduation. We didn't get home until midnight! Now, you all must know what that does to the following day: burning pain, pin-prick pain, fogginess, and irritability. Today's been a mess!
I found out that one of my former college classmates is pregnant. While I am happy for her and her husband, it was shocking to me because my first reaction was not, "Good for them, I'm so excited for her!" like it's always been in the past. Today was the first time I have been freaked out that I'm 24 and have no prospects of having a baby on the immediate horizon. Logically I know it's silly, but that biological clock started screaming this morning! My fiancé was incredible at listening to me freaking out about being scared that my body might not be able to have kids because of the fibro. He reminded me that I'm getting married in less than 4 weeks, I have a great apartment, a couple of cats, and wonderful friends!
Fibro Tip #1: Acknowledge the great things you already have going on in your life and be happy with where you are.
I've been beading lace for my wedding dress. By "I've been beading," I mean that I'm now in my 39th hour of hand beading every single bead onto the lace. Today I left it on the couch for about 90 seconds while I went to the bathroom and when I got back there were beads pulled out and a hole in it. So if anyone wants a free cat... No, I jest, but I was so mad at my very adorable, very curious cat for a while after that happened. After I stopped freaking out quite so much, I called my sister and we talked about the last week. I felt a lot better after we talked. I should be able to fix the lace without it being noticeable.
Fibro Tip #2: Know who's in your support system--and don't be afraid to use them!
My fiancé just got done with his first year of teaching, so he's home for the summer. He took the laundry to the laundromat, switched it to the dryers, and brought it home. Today while my fiancé was comforting me, he mentioned that he knows he has to do a little bit more housework than we originally would have expected him to do because we never know when I'm going to have a bad day like today and I won't be able to do everything that needs to get done. His willingness to accept that for the next 70 years is so fantastic!
Fibro Tip #3: Marry someone amazing.
Hope your days have been calm and gentle!
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