Perfectly Normal...?

The typical fibromyalgia patient hears this line all too often: "Well, everything looks perfectly normal..." I got to hear that this morning again. I've been having eye problems (blurring, shadowing) and I've had an MRI that is perfectly beautiful, doctor appointments during which I pass tests almost flawlessly, and today the neuro-opthamologist (I didn't even know that job existed a month ago) said it wasn't neurological (good?) but he doesn't know what it could be because physically, I'm just fine, too. He said it might be an irregular astigmatism, but I have to wait a week to find out, and honestly, he didn't seem too positive about that possibility.

I just want to scream!!! How many times does this have to happen?! I've seen four neurologists, two opthamologists, a rheumatologist, four maxillofacial specialists, a sleep doctor, a cardiologist, an allergist, and two primary care physicians. I'm exhausted! All of those doctors ended up saying that there's nothing physically wrong with me. I'm not really sure who else to see. I guess an endocrinologist would be good probably, with the hypothyroidism, but I don't think that has much to do with my eyes.

So...today I got a tweet from the Cincinnati ABC affiliate that said, "Hope you're having a positive Monday!" It was exactly what I needed. I am so annoyed and tired of doctors, but there are people, and even entire organizations, who are there to lift us up when we need it. I wasn't having a very positive day, but I think if I demand that I have a positive Monday for the rest of today, I can make that happen!

Today demand of yourself a positive attitude. Even if you don't get enough done or are lost in your fibrofog, believe that there are better days ahead and find beauty and happiness in the little things. And don't worry about being "perfectly normal"--there are way too many normal people in the world. Take this opportunity of being different to do something great.

And if you can't find something to smile about, here's a photo of my beautiful Russian Blue kitten; he can always make me smile. :)

"Be the change you wish to see in the world." --Gandhi